Uncomfortably Numb

I was told by someone the other day that my worth is what I value in dollars. I was told that whatever I have worked for and whatever I have achieved is worthless. I was told that it's my failure that people don't shower me with their affection by giving me suitcases filled with money. I was told that love loyalty and the relations of blood are nothing if they don't have euros in the offering. That someone has hurt me really deeply ... Again. I don't know how long I can stand this anymore. I don't even want to reply to these pathetic and loathsome thoughts which go against every thing taught by my mentors and the values which I believe to be present in every drop of my blood.

We as pakistanis are going through some pretty rough times not a day goes by when something even worse than the day before doesn't happen. Trying to make sense of this mess is equally disturbing resulting in confusion and all kinds of wild theories. It's very easy to point the finger at someone else and place the blame but complex issues such as what plague our country cannot have simple answers. The answers are intertwined with our history and can only be achieved through unbiased objective thinking. The term revolution is heard over and over again mounting to frustration that there isn't one happening in Pakistan any time soon which is ironically a blessing cause a revolution without a clear and well defined objective and without the proper education of the masses will be disastrous for Pakistan. Pakistani revolutionary movements tend to be highjacked by those who have their own agendas. It's the people who must spearhead the change no political party or organiz

Keeping and remembering long passwords is a pain but there is a simple method which can make good strong passwords. As a rule always keep your Hotmail Facebook Yahoo Gmail Twitter passwords different and never use same password for all. Here is how it works make a base password first for Example: Xenoped174 Notice it has one Capital Letter and the word it self is not a common English word and there is a number in the end. This it self is a strong password but now how to make it different for all the services you use. Lets say we want to make this for yahoo then what you can do is that you put the word yahoo in the start, middle or at the end Xenoped174yahoo or yahooXenoped174 or Xenopedyahoo174 It is your secret that where you place the service part lets see what happens with Hotmail same password but for hotmail Xenoped174hotmail this way you can make countless unique strong passwords which are very easy to remember and hard to hack. Most people use a single passwo

I need you now to take my hand walk the sands feel my heart pounding for you I see you now cant break free your sweet words mystify me, cant be longing for you I feel you now slipping away with the ocean's sway your my life line searching for you I wish it could be not just a fantasy dreaming ecstasy perpetual agony waiting for you

For a generation to succeed it must be nurtured by the previous generation. The growing mind of a child which is constantly learning needs stimulation in order to get that mind to think in the right direction and pave the way to knowledge and better understanding. As I remember my childhood, even though there was only one tv channel then PTV, the thing which stands out is that there was a genuine effort to educate as well as entertain. Perhaps one of the reasons for that is that profit was not the aim. I remember lots of programs that I watched that have shaped the way I think, the way I view the world. Programs which explained the world to me, opened the doors to science and technology, to rationality and looking at the world differently. Much has gone bad since then ... there are virtually no educational programs left on any channel ... one might argue there is the Discovery Channel or National Geographic sure these resources are there and a few are willing to learn ... but the s

My mind is in fulto khapping mode at the moment. Reason unknown. Maybe I'm bored or maybe as the great mujambo says sari rati khajal Hoya fer v kuj nahin labba. Whatever the reason I hate khapping mode and it seems whenever one is in khapping mode the rest of the world is hell bent on increasing it's potency. I think this can be used as a blogging tool. At least it can save drafts. The other day I wrote a poem on another program and it didn't save it and all data was lost and I had to write it again. Just came back from hospital Rohail's got some kind of allergic rash on his legs dr says it's due to wedding meat. The wedding couple is in front of me acting all funny trying not to. Another fraking drama is on hum tv. I think all drama makers on paki tv should be castrated. The shit that passes as television is crap of the most smelly kind. And then the uncle goes ahead and turns on the news... Man this guy in one big news junkie ... And the news is even crappi

She was like an ocean breeze she touched his face she held his hands under the pillows to hide the love she had she was like a blossom she let him go smiling how she hurt inside how she cried he never knew she hid it just like before he moved on and so did she he never apologized she never said a word maybe she knew how sorry he was what they had pure & beautiful maybe eternal perhaps needs closure to finally say goodbye