Reveries of the soul

Deep inside this beating heart
a lingering pain tears apart

kept from the world secluded
undisclosed remorse alluded

perhaps memory streams
forgotten hopes & dreams

perhaps tears which shared
face with the pillow screams

this remains of what was lost
heart paying the truth’s cost

every breath a reminding ache
times of anguish & heartbreak

shattered pieces of my soul
the words written in scroll

the truth, no one will know
for I would never let it show

this, the eternal anguish
is my continual languish


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