Uncomfortably Numb

Days have gone since I Saw your face smiling at me That last goodbye wish it lingered Your sweet voice calling for me I look at your side of the bed Teary eyes have nothing to see You were crazy sometimes Sometimes sweet just for me Every second I fight back misery For the one thats looking at me I can't fathom living without you But that's the way I have to be You were God's precious gift Which no one else can ever be I close my eyes and I see you In my heart you'll forever be

O Allah the almighty Hear my cries See the tears I weep Save me There's none else that I seek For I am torn Shattered The ache hidden I keep Great is your name Sublime is your magnificence True is your word All the promises you keep Vast is your kingdom Over countless dimensions Infinite is your knowledge Boundless is your mercy Pray forgive me my lord For my sins I am but a speck of dust At the mercy of your wish

How can I remember you How can I capture in words What you were to me, are to me How can I say to you How looking at you made my day How can I write in words How my world shattered when you left How can I even begin to imagine a life without you How can I, not see you everyday and Not feel my soul evaporate How can I see someone in love and not lament what I've lost How can I walk these roads where we used to walk How can I bare these walls which still echo your voice How can I laugh when your not here to share it How can I breath When your not here to hear it How can I tell the story Where is my happy ending

Your voice woke me up Only to find an empty space You were beautiful elegance For me Personified grace Every moment your reflections I see your kind and gentle face All that's left are memories  An ache for the heart to embrace You shone and made my life bright With light which nothing can replace

All praise is for Allah For He is the one Who can save u From the rain From the lowest depths From lingering pain My tears are for u o Allah For you are the one Who gave me the test Of loosing the one a gem among the rest My lips will only say your praise While my heart weeps While my eyes betray a tear I see the gift I'm left with The little angel for me to keep For I endured all u gave me With patience and faith I have stood with head held high But I am a speck of dust At the mercy of your wish Pray be kind for you're all merciful You're the one who gives plentiful When we don't even ask I submit my self o God For a contented life For this sweet angel A never fading smile That's all I ask

All I wanted to say was goodbye To hold you for one last time To hear your heart beat To remember once you were mine Can't fathom the Distance more than what's between us Can't bear the silence Echoes of words said once I laughed today at my sadness Perhaps the answer, madness Perhaps if I close my eyes Would end dreaming darkness It's not easy forever waiting When I know your not coming How to make the heart understand How to stop this perpetual yearning Nothing soothes nothing eases the pain even stopped searching reasons to blame All the roads traveled together in vain Story of love lost never to be found again

All left to do is to cry the one last goodbye cant take back words how hard you may try when love is not enough how can life go on, get by getting harder to breath heart stumbles asking why tear soaked the pillow none touched your eye said you hated this face which once made you high this pain wont go away wishing could just vanish, die.