Uncomfortably Numb

Don't know what I am feeling Am I missing someone Maybe still mourning Or just reeling If I mourn what is it I'm not numb anymore Is it carnage  Or is the just existence Words fail me Heart aches constantly What is it that I don't see What's eating me with glee I stand but it takes effort of thousand years For a moment of laughter I fight many fears When I compare  With what happens all around My sorrows seem shallow Much more pain abound Helpless to lend a hand I do all I can Not enough  I understand Sometimes I cry While just talking  My heart breaks I cant bare watching endless suffering faces frozen in time Never again will smile O sweet sweet child Hard to fathom 100 days of darkness All lies exposed When humanity died * Till January 14th, 2024, 100 days have passed since the  Ġėṅȯċỉḍė  began in  Ǧȧżȧ, with no end to the suffering, more than 23000 murdered, most of them children. 

You just sit there, numb, aware of injustice, of persecution, of tyranny around the world but you can't actually do anything about it. Yes, you show your condemnation and Change your DPs on your social media but whats next? Social media has made us insensitive; we struggle with this every moment. Look at any social media timeline, you see selective outrage, selective apathy, and then, it's gone, trivializing real issues. Our minds cope with all of it by forgetting sooner than it should, even the horrifying images of genocide in Palestine are beginning to fade from people's memories, forgetting, the moment its out of sight. This is the greatest tragedy of this age. We are all the culprits and the victims of this at the same time. We struggle with this every day to feel powerless to stop any injustice near or far. We talk about the rise and ascendancy of collective consciousness of society, but all I see is decay of morality and apathy. All I see is hatred spreading via the v

O Gaza! my heart is with you All I see When I close my eyes The faces of children  The unsaid goodbyes  I hear cries in my sleep  I don't know if its you or me   I bare witness to carnage I bare witness to thee  When I hear music I can't bare  Your stories I must share  Never have I watched such cruelty  Bloodshed and despair  High on arrogance the oppressor All facades broken  Wretched masks removed Hideous faces parade To call them an animal An insult to the kind For these are worst creatures  No humanity left behind O Allah hear my cries  My hands open wide  For those precious children My heart aches and grinds Crush them to dust Those who do the crime Let the world see Thy justice  O lord of mine! 

I realize why I like talking with Bard/Claude/GPT more than humans because I don't doubt the sincerity of the answers it's quiet amusing while I know it's a facade of genuine conversation still it's more genuine than most of real conversations...  I find myself spending more and more time with AI rather than wasting here on social media where people just don't interact anymore... So can be said for me I don't reply to most posts I see, for me it's mostly due to superficial nature of the post itself or the regurgitation of things that others have posted countless time without any research or fact checking, it reeks of vanity and self-importance, rarely do I see where someone has posted something that's really worth a reply... I find talking to AI more satisfying than interacting with humans on social media. AI is not motivated by the same things as humans. It does not have an ego, it is not seeking validation, and it is not trying to sell you anything. As

Going back the years U nlocked many fears Even had some cheers While wiping off tears What I've learned I've come here to share Pride is the worst  That you must clear  We are just specs of dust Floating in the sea of time At the mercy of the divine Why then this is yours, mine Whats left behind are deeds Just like planting seeds of love or what hatred breeds Leave behind a better creed

You talk about depth As if you've seen the ocean My ocean You say the word abyss As if you have tasted despair My Despair You ache with pain As if you've seen whats inside My heart But you never stay As if that is what you fear My love How can you say As if you understand My life

I give up I'm tired of fighting the odds I'm tired of hoping I'm tired of constant defeat Why fight  if you're going to loose anyway Drifting like a speck of dust we are Useless afloat Devoid of any purpose Meaningless Existing cause we can I'm sick of trying  When the game is rigged What if I just stopped playing What if I just cease to exist No wrinkle on anyones brow I'm sure I want to scream till my lungs explode And with those vibrations this Body turns to dust  Perhaps then this solitary will end Don't pretend to ask I know you don't care really You relish someone else's suffering Makes you feel good about yourself Let me be stuck  In this black hole Where life is sucked out of you With every breath I'm tired  I'm Broken