I become numb

Its a natural reaction. It would have happened like this. The inevitability of such things is not rare. Humans break. I give up now I admit it. No use fighting anymore. I become numb and oblivious of the hell your putting me through. Go on do your best, take your best shot, run me down, burn me. That wont hurt me anymore...

Its strange to watch yourself burn and not feel it. Surely this could not be real. You said you could feel what I could feel but people lie...

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