A tough road to travel on

I did it all. I've seen it all unfold. I know the questions and even know the answers.I grasp the reality of it. I try to hold  on to it. I try to fail. I know the limits. I close my eyes.

I try to dream but the nightmare wont let me sleep. what kind of dream is this. Somebody wake me up…Save me!

I know what I've lost and I know what I've gained. I keep hoping that it would end this time. How did I end up here looking at the abyss of sorrows. All I want right now is to slowly drift into non existence. 

I've had enough. This has to stop.

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