Uncomfortably Numb

For ages a simple question has pondered man's mind and so it has mine as well. Why ? perhaps the question is unnecessary since God Himself as already given the answer in so many of his books and revelations to His profits. But Man is Neive and somewhat ignorent and so much in the notion that his entity as an individual matters. what troubles me is the question. In the grand scheme of things of which I may be an insginificant spec do My existance and the conciousness that Makes me an unique indivisual matters. If not... since what ever I am and whatever I see around me is a reallity is in my mind seen through my eyes and may be totally diffrent from what someone else sees or what actually is .... then whatever there is that I see is my reality that is a reflection of how I see the world. Is mans existance as an unique one just some misconception ... what is the place of man in Gods scheme of things.

The Prelude There are times when the eagle too is afraid of flying... when the fish fear the water and the sun is afraid of its own light.... This was one of those times in my life... I woke up to a dark room, heavy curtains stopping the light coming from the large windows. I realized that my head was aching like hell. Suddenly the telephone rang and I got out of the bed to answer it... Some Dark voice from a distance said : Hello ... Gregory ! I see that you’re awake ... now... Who is this? I said. Ohhh ... that is not relevant at this moment... what is more important is that do you know who u are... I... I .... and it dawned on me.... who Am I .... I didn't remember... See you soon Greg the voice said in a mysterious manner... and the phone hung up. Who was I ... I didn’t know... where was I? ... Now I started to look around. Every thing was unfamiliar. It was a small room the windows were larger then usual I pushed the curtain and looked out side and what I saw I'll neve