Fear


Life is such a bitter thing
so many expectations
too many limitations

I never saw it as it was
I never felt it as it was

Why do I expect too much
why do I reflect so much

Why are there so many worries
why is my heart afraid

Why can’t I be free
free from all anxiety from all fear
why doesn’t my heart go to rest

What is that fear that keeps on haunting me
why is that fire that keeps on burning me

2-12-99

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